What happens when a wounded heart forgives.......?
It's just a part of life. People hurt people. It's funny how so many times we'll blame God. Why God? Why did you do this to me? I'm sure God's wondering why we don't see the truth. No, probably not, considering he already knows the truth. The reality is, people hurt people, not God. And sometimes we hurt ourselves. I know I have made poor decisions in my life that brought me pain. I've also made decisions that brought other's pain. How many of us have told lies? How many of us have said something mean? How many of us have been selfish? We all are guilty in some way. Why can't we just admit the truth? It's hard I know, but it will set you free.
I told you in my first blog about some pain I was carrying around. Pain that wouldn't go away. Not until I acknowledged it was there & then I had to release that pain. I literally said out loud, I lay this at your feet, God...I will no longer hold on to this! I can honestly say my healing came
when I forgave.
You see, I was angry at those men for violating me. Angry as hell. How could they do that to a little girl....those sickoes. And these men weren't strangers to me. I was also angry at my parents, why didn't they protect me? I was angry w/ God....why didn't he stop them? I had allowed bitterness to take it's root in my heart. And the loved ones in my life were paying the price.
I'm not going to tell you this was easy, but I did forgive those men. And I realized it was free will that gave them the Right to violate me. And it was my free will to be bitter. I also realized my parents weren't super heroes. They were human too & they had no idea what those things were going on. No idea! And God, he wasn't to be blamed. He loved me....he would never want those terrible things to happen to his daughter!
The healing process didn't happen over night. It was a period of many nights. That first day in my apartment when I cried out to God.....that was the just the beginning of my wounded heart
being healed.
You see, that day I experienced true forgiveness. In all my ugliness & filth God reached down from heaven w/ the power of his love & touched my life. I began to see clearly.....the disillusionment was no longer. That forgiveness I experienced that day would be the same forgiveness I would have for those men.
God showed me 'true forgiveness'. It says in John 3:16-17, 16"For God So Loved the Whole world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him."
It's just a part of life. People hurt people. It's funny how so many times we'll blame God. Why God? Why did you do this to me? I'm sure God's wondering why we don't see the truth. No, probably not, considering he already knows the truth. The reality is, people hurt people, not God. And sometimes we hurt ourselves. I know I have made poor decisions in my life that brought me pain. I've also made decisions that brought other's pain. How many of us have told lies? How many of us have said something mean? How many of us have been selfish? We all are guilty in some way. Why can't we just admit the truth? It's hard I know, but it will set you free.
I told you in my first blog about some pain I was carrying around. Pain that wouldn't go away. Not until I acknowledged it was there & then I had to release that pain. I literally said out loud, I lay this at your feet, God...I will no longer hold on to this! I can honestly say my healing came
when I forgave.
You see, I was angry at those men for violating me. Angry as hell. How could they do that to a little girl....those sickoes. And these men weren't strangers to me. I was also angry at my parents, why didn't they protect me? I was angry w/ God....why didn't he stop them? I had allowed bitterness to take it's root in my heart. And the loved ones in my life were paying the price.
I'm not going to tell you this was easy, but I did forgive those men. And I realized it was free will that gave them the Right to violate me. And it was my free will to be bitter. I also realized my parents weren't super heroes. They were human too & they had no idea what those things were going on. No idea! And God, he wasn't to be blamed. He loved me....he would never want those terrible things to happen to his daughter!
The healing process didn't happen over night. It was a period of many nights. That first day in my apartment when I cried out to God.....that was the just the beginning of my wounded heart
being healed.
You see, that day I experienced true forgiveness. In all my ugliness & filth God reached down from heaven w/ the power of his love & touched my life. I began to see clearly.....the disillusionment was no longer. That forgiveness I experienced that day would be the same forgiveness I would have for those men.
God showed me 'true forgiveness'. It says in John 3:16-17, 16"For God So Loved the Whole world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him."
God So loved the Whole world & gave his greatest gift to us...His own Son, Jesus. He didn't just do this for me, but for everyone. I realized that I was a sinner just like these men....I committed different sins, but still, I was in need of a Savior. They need a Savior too. When I saw how much God loved me....I could clearly see how much he loved them. How could I not forgive them. God being Perfect has forgiven me for All of my sins. I choose to Forgive. There is power in Forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't put bandaids on wounds, it heals them. Because the Love of God covers a multitude of sins. The love of God is a power to be reckoned with. His love Transforms. This is how a wounded heart forgives....because it is forgiven also.
Acts 10:39-44 says,
39"We are witnesses of everything he did in the country of the Jews and in Jerusalem. They killed him by hanging him on a tree, 40but God raised him from the dead on the third day and caused him to be seen. 41He was not seen by all the people, but by witnesses whom God had already chosen—by us who ate and drank with him after he rose from the dead. 42He commanded us to preach to the people and to testify that he is the one whom God appointed as judge of the living and the dead. 43All the prophets testify about him that everyone who believes in him receives forgiveness of sins through his name."
44While Peter was still speaking these words, the Holy Spirit came on all who heard the message.
Acts 10:39-44 says,
39"We are witnesses of everything he did in the country of the Jews and in Jerusalem. They killed him by hanging him on a tree, 40but God raised him from the dead on the third day and caused him to be seen. 41He was not seen by all the people, but by witnesses whom God had already chosen—by us who ate and drank with him after he rose from the dead. 42He commanded us to preach to the people and to testify that he is the one whom God appointed as judge of the living and the dead. 43All the prophets testify about him that everyone who believes in him receives forgiveness of sins through his name."
44While Peter was still speaking these words, the Holy Spirit came on all who heard the message.
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